Eek, I never thought my blog would be one that kind of just fizzled out but...looking at the last time I posted--it has. It's funny the more and more social networking applications we sign up for it seems the less we have to say. Our need to mass communicate has been replaced with a "twitter post" or "status update" vs. any real thoughtful dialogue. I think combined with an insane production schedule (realizing blogs can sometimes just be a place to bitch) forced me to take a break from the website. I appreciate all the emails checking in and, sorry, this is long overdue for an update.

It's funny how my path has wound from a 23 year old gay advocate parading around in front of the camera to now producing reality TV. It's been a trip this last year and a half pulling the strings behind the scenes for the "talent" that I once was. It's also amazing how much reality television has changed in the last 6+ years. When we did our little show it was a little more doco style--set up the situations sit back and film. Now a days it seems like a constant stream of emotional porn and exploitation of the poor souls so desperate for their 15 minutes they will do anything. And I mean ANYTHING. Aye Aye Aye.

Above and beyond--I have settled back in Los Angeles in a gorgeous little house with my mutt and two amazing roommates. I still have my love/hate relationship with Los Angeles--right now happens to be a love cycle. Ha, we'll see how long it lasts.

As for politics--I don't even know where to begin. I had stopped raising my voice so loudly since I was finally seeing some movement headed towards civil equality for the LGBT community. With Barack Obama's election as our first African American President and his campaign promises to the LGBT community I was happy to kind of step back and watch. What has unfolded the last 145 days has left me shocked and dismayed.

Stepping back, however, has allowed me to see the error of my ways for the last decade embattled in our fight for civil rights. The fight to rally our base (which I traveled the country doing for 10+ years) was SUCH the wrong direction. Trying to rally and organize Gays and Lesbians politically is like trying to hold sand in your open hands. I always knew our rights would not come from within but with the recognition that our rights WERE a civil rights issue. I thought rallying our base with a constant battle cry was the way to do that. I see now I was mistaken. There was almost no rallying...just another black tie event where I got to hear polite applause for my articulate words and thoughtful passion. I truly believe it took the passing of Prop 8 to prove to straight America that this IS the civil rights movement of our time.

Now I realize our fight/outreach is with conservative movement. We have been their scapegoat and kicking bag for far too long. We have to prove to them that we ARE family values. We have to prove to them that we DESERVE a piece of social responsibility. When we take away their ammunition and fodder for their gay rights burning fire they'll have nothing else to stand on but empty bigotry and hate. It is up to each of us to, yes, hold on to our community but do so as a launching pad to reach out to those who think we are different or don't deserve the rights they take for granted.

The sexual revolution is over. It's time for our political revolution.

W.